Former basketball player Lamar Odom has opened up for the first time about his crippling sex and drug addiction that almost ended his life.
Lamar in his new memoir titled Darkness to Light exclusively excerpted in PEOPLE, he revealed that; “I have been obsessed with sex for as long as I can remember.”
“I am a sex addict,”The 39-year-old reveals that he has had sex with more than 2,000 women. “There were too many strippers to count,” he writes. “It wasn’t a big deal, but often I would pay them. I never thought less of them.”
Odom’s addiction to sex was compounded by his addiction to drugs.
“Sex was a trigger for me to do drugs,” he tells PEOPLE. “Because you double up on [that] good feeling.”
The former NBA player also revealed that he cheated on his ex-wife Khloe Kardashian throughout their marriage.
“I was shocked and embarrassed,” he tells PEOPLE in an exclusive interview. “I wanted to take it back, but you can’t. [I] wanted to hide it. But that sick sin was hard for me to hide … I had a problem.”
Now Odom is drug-free, but admits that he’s still working through his demons.
I’m still an addict,” he writes in his book. “I still struggle … [But] I will not go into the darkness. Ever again.”